Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
His child
Jerome Lee - eversianz
AHS 1F'08,2k'09,3H'10,4H'11
SHPS 1/6,2/6,3/9,4/9,5/9,6/9
BB 49J(2004-2007) 14th(2008-2011)
Leading Boy(Pri Sch), Warrant Officer(Sec Sch)
Once a Hildan, always a hildan.
GOD is my saviour.He is always there for me.
Still ever feeling lonely.
Wants.
New Games
New Bball
New Phone
New Pencil Case DONE
New Watch DONE
New Clothes
Crumpler Slingbag...
Know More People.
Learn More Stuff.
Learn Drums
Learn Dancing
Learn Japanese
Go into top 5 Jcs.
Go into University.
her...
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
-8/04/2010 11:00:00 PM
ppl used to say. it's alright, it's ok... i dunno why.. but these words seem so common that it never seems to be a word of comfort anymore.
Nothing seems to be able to prevent me from worrying, from thinking, from deciding what to do from now on. I have to do something. i just dunno what i should do.. Everytime I hear the few words, i just want to kill myself as i would start thinking about the whole process and all the crappy stuff that i did. It really makes me regret. Sometimes acting on impulse and your hope isnt bringing u to where u feel at best. It just feels all wrong. I hope that everything will come to and end.... Everything. Really Everything is telling me to do something, trying to guide me out of all this. Be it from devotion to talks by teachers, to zuo wen questions, to homework, to words from all my friends. It all seems to know what i am thinking but without actually knowing it. Probably a sign from God on what to do. but i still feel that is so difficult.
Nothing seems to go right what it is supposed to be. Many say that this is how life is supposed to be.. for u to solve, for u to spend time do it. Time is not in my hands., and I cant seem to solve so many problems at once.. The expectations for me are alr set by many. not normal ones, but fairly high.. i want to achieve better but everything is pulling me down. Hearing a word of encouragement can be so rare and difficult. I hardly hear it anymore. Rather i dun think i will hear it anymore. Somehow ppl are not thinking of how I feel, how I am feeling, How things are supposed to be done. EVERYONE IS FREAKING SELFISH. what is their problem. only thinking about themselves... i know this wolrd is difficult, a battlefield where u are alone when everything is against you and problems that are set for u, are just so difficult to solve... but isnt there any way, anyone to help u? i dun believe so. but for so long.. i have not seen anything. Not a single living person on this earth that has been doing that for me or anyone.
-sigh- i jsut dunno how to put it into words. those ignorant, selfish, brainless people.. i am lost on what to do with u all. dont blame me. i will want to do what is right and not the popular or something that everyone will appreciate me for.
Gratefulness seems to be oso missing in many ppl. chances are give to them for a reason and they dun appreciate it. Instead, they boast abt it. and show that they are better. i dunno why. it just seems all stupid. Will u be able to get that privillege if it werent for me? again. how selfish. how unthoughtful.
I thought u knew what to do. You have known me more than anyone else. why do u still have to ask me abt such trival stuff? is it that difficult to understand me. i should know me best. just shut up, enocurage and everything will be alright.
Sorry. I dun want to do anything bad to u. i dun want to be an asshole. being the one that u cry for, someone taht u have to give up. becos of my stupid actions. really sorry. i will make it up to you.
Thanks for those trying to comfort me. to those who try to understand me. try to see my problems and knowing what is the limit.... Thanks. but sorry. i am still unable to get thru this just yet. I want to...so get out of this irritating whole lot of crap. how distracting.
